Up until this evening, my husband has been my sole IVF injection nurse. We've been doing a great job of keeping the injections as close to 7am and 7pm as possible. Tonight my sister and I made plans to go to a friend's house for dinner. Instead of waiting until after my shot, my sister agreed to give me the shot at our friend's house at 7pm. She had watched my husband give me the shot the past two nights - so she was somewhat familiar with the process. She was a little nervous, but she did a great job! So now I have two qualified nurses to give me my shots. :)
On Sunday I went to a baby shower for a dear friend that lives out-of-state. She's expecting a baby boy on March 3, 2011. At the shower I was talking to another mutual friend that went through some infertility struggles of her own and she asked if showers were hard on me. Luckily, I was able to honestly answer that they don't bother me. Which is good - because I've had a lot of family & friends that have gotten pregnant in the past couple of years. I think I can thank my sense of logic for this... I know that when others get pregnant, it doesn't lessen my chances of getting pregnant. If we were all pulling from the same "baby pool" then maybe selfishly I would be a little more upset. I have also always really loved being around babies and little kids - so having new babies around to hold and little kids to play with is always fun! More than anything though - after going through infertility, I wouldn't wish this on anyone and hope that all of my friends and family (that wish to have babies) are able to get pregnant quickly without having to give it a second thought.
Don't get me wrong - of course I have had my share of pity party days...usually on the day or two after I got my period each month. Sometimes when I was feeling down, I would feel a little guilty for being sad - especially since we have so much to be thankful for in our lives. We are lucky to have each other, our health, wonderful family, awesome friends, beautiful house, good jobs, crazy cat, etc.. I also knew that being upset isn't going to change anything, so I would just try to move on and be positive for the next month. Each month I would always think that "this month" would somehow be different and would be the one. My spirits have been really positive so far in this in-vitro cycle and my husband is pretty excited about it, too. We know that it's not a sure thing - but we're committed to giving it a shot and seeing what happens.
Tonight as I was driving home from work, I was thinking about all of the friends and family that are supporting us through this process and keeping us in their thoughts and prayers during this time. We are very thankful and lucky to have such an amazing support group and someday we hope to have some good news to share. Tomorrow is my next bloodwork and ultrasound appointment - looking forward to seeing how my ovaries and follicles are looking after a few days of Gonal-F.