I don't even care about all the money we've spent or all of the time/energy we've put into this IVF cycle - the biggest disappointment is just finding out, once again - that I'm not pregnant and we are still back to square one for trying to start our family. The process really wasn't that bad for us and on paper everything for our cycle was absolutely perfect. But like anything, there's no guarantee and I'm sure many not-so-perfect IVF cycles end up with perfect babies.
We're trying to take comfort in the fact that we have 6 frozen embryos (which we are very lucky and blessed to have), but right now it's not really making us feel any better about the whole situation. I'm not sure if Dr. Williams will be able to tell us why it didn't work, for whatever reason I guess the embryos just didn't implant and attach like we wanted them to. I'm not sure if there's anything different they can do to try to make it work next time with the frozen embryos or not.
This failed attempt at pregnancy will be much tougher to handle, since IVF is usually the last option for infertility treatments. Just when I think I don't have any more tears to cry, a few more squeak out. I know that time will heal this wound, but it's just hard to think that it's going to work next time if it didn't work this time. We just don't understand... How could it not have worked? Why didn't they attach to my uterus? Will anything ever work for us? Haven't we been through enough? We are trying to trust that there was a good reason that these little embryos didn't take and we hope that someday God's plan for us will sync up with what we want. But for today, we will just have to agree to disagree.We know that our family & friends will be sharing in our sorrow today. Sorry that we're always being the bearer of bad news.... even though it's tough to truly believe today, I still have hope that someday we will have some good news for everyone. Just not today. :( As tough as it will be, we will get through this and figure out what we want to do next. And through my tears today, I still consider myself a lucky girl to have such an amazing husband, wonderful family, and amazing circle of friends.